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It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Barnabas Skeeter - 02-27-2016

@'Amelia Evans'
January 27th, 1886
Amelia,

It's three in the morning and I haven't been able to sleep. I'll wait until dawn to send the owl so as not to wake you - assuming that you are able to sleep, after everything. I've sat here and paced and fretted and whined, and I just can't throw everything away as easily as you seem to be able to do.

I keep thinking about what happened and it just seems so wrong. It seems that I am not very skilled at expressing my emotions, nor knowing the right thing to say to you. Everything I do exacerbates the situation. I want you to know that I love you and my heart breaks at the thought of losing you... or have I lost you already? Please owl back at your earliest convenience. I cannot rest until I know my fate.

Very truly yours —
Barnabas

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RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Amelia Evans - 02-28-2016

30th January 1886

Barnabas,
Please forgive my delay in response as I have been busy at work, and Penny recently fell ill. I'm sorry I reacted the way I did the other night, but even so, I still refuse to believe that I could eventually get used to the idea being with someone who wants to dampen the role of women in society by declaring them unstable and incapable of controlling themselves.

Even after much thought I still can't give you a clear response. Every way I've worked it out in my head, it doesn't end well. We are both too stubborn and prideful, my love. Tell me I am wrong, for I'm desperate to figure out a solution.


Yours,


Amelia Evans


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RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Barnabas Skeeter - 02-28-2016

@'Amelia Evans'
January 30th, 1886
Amelia,

I had begun to think that your not responding to my owl was your final answer. Needless to say, I was very relieved to have found it waiting on my desk. I hope Penny is doing well. I know how much she means to you.

I am also desperate to find a solution. I cannot simply withdraw everything from the papers. I do see your point, and it is a good one, but I don't see a way for me to just drop it. The ball has already started rolling and has picked up momentum. If I were to withdraw myself, the Ministry would never promote me again. They might think I do not take things seriously and let me go, even. As I'm sure you're aware, there isn't a lot of other opportunities for someone with my... disability. It would be unlikely that we would have a future on that path - I would never be able to support you. I wouldn't even be able to support myself.

Please, overlook this mistake I have made. It will blow over by the end of summer. I promise.

Please respond —
Barnabas


RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Amelia Evans - 02-28-2016

31st January 1886

Barnabas,
Penny is out of danger, though she won't be traveling with me to work for a while. I'll give her your regards.

I understand your inability to retract your statement - I do, and the last thing I would want for you is to be seen as a coward in the eyes of the public. But this begs the question, why you didn't talk to me about this worry you had before you went to the public with it. I realize it's not my place to know everything in your life, but surely you must have known that I would protest.

It may have blown over by summer, but if you think that society - women, some of whom have great political power - will forget it, you are sorely mistaken. And if you manage to get women banned from dueling as a whole, then I'm loathe to inform you you'll have an even bigger problem on your hands.


Yours,


Amelia Evans


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RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Barnabas Skeeter - 02-28-2016

@'Amelia Evans'
February 1st, 1886
Amelia,

To be entirely honest, it didn't occur to me that you would dislike the idea. I had assumed that loving me meant that I would have your support in my occupational ambitions. I know now that I was wrong.

In any case, I am fully prepared to accept the eternal hatred of several important women. I expect that it is too late to reverse the poor impressions that they have of me. I had not expected to receive such backlash. My main concern is whether you'll still have me, mistakes and all.

Yours —
Barnabas


RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Amelia Evans - 02-28-2016

2nd February 1886

Barnabas,
Loving you means I try to understand where you are coming from and I do my best to support you. That doesn't mean it will always happen, and this is one of those times, Barnabas. We are at a disagreement that doesn't only run on the surface. For me, this issue defines who I am and who I strive to be - a woman who is able to defend herself and who has the support of everyone around her.

I can try to be that person for you - that person that I try to surround myself with, but realize this isn't an issue I take lightly, and I can't forgive if we are excluded entirely from dueling. Should this motion pass, we are taking 3 giant leaps backwards.



Amelia Evans


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RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Barnabas Skeeter - 02-29-2016

February 3rd, 1886
Amelia,

There might be a possibility to start up a Women's Defense League if the anti-dueling proposal does go through. It may be a good idea to have one start up regardless, as I would feel much better about you traveling to and from work on your own if you were to have thorough knowledge of defensive principles.

When can I see you again?

Yours —
Barnabas


RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Amelia Evans - 03-02-2016

5th February 1886

Barnabas,
Never in my life have I met such a hypocritical man. You say dueling is dangerous for us, but you do realize dueling involves defense spells right? And now you suggest a Women's Defense League for us to employ dueling techniques but we can't participate in the actual dueling?

Please don't contact me.



Amelia Evans


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RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Barnabas Skeeter - 03-04-2016

February 6th, 1886
Amelia,

You can't mean that. You're just upset. I love you. Please don't do this. You said that this was something that you didn't want to do.

Please respond —
Barnabas


RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Barnabas Skeeter - 03-04-2016

February 9th, 1886
Amelia,

You and I can both be stubborn. I think this is one of the times where you are being stubborn just to prove a point. I understand. However, it is rather childish to throw something so important to you away for the sake of making a point. However, you are very important to me and You say I'm a hypocrite, but you

Just please write me back. I would hate to lose you over this.

Please respond —
Barnabas


RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Barnabas Skeeter - 03-04-2016

February 15th, 1886
Amelia,

Please, I love you. I haven't been able to eat or sleep for weeks. I am miserable without you. I have tried to stop by the shop several times this week but your coworkers said you weren't there. I don't know whether I should believe them. Please write back.

I love you —
Barnabas


RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Barnabas Skeeter - 03-04-2016

February 17th, 1886
Amelia,

This is absolutely ridiculous. I'm not going to grovel and beg anymore. You've made your decision. I would be lying if I said that I'm not hurt, but clearly your stubbornness is one of your fatal flaws. I hope you find happiness one day. I would have hoped to part on good terms, but it would appear that this is not going to be the case. Don't worry, I will take whatever needs I have to the Magical Menagerie in London. It's closer to my work anyhow.

I won't be contacting you again. I hope this is what you wanted.

Sincerely —
Barnabas


RE: It's been a cold, cold, cold, cold night - Barnabas Skeeter - 03-04-2016

February 18th, 1886
Amelia,

I'm sorry, I wrote brashly after having a bit too much whiskey. I should never have sent that owl. Not a word of it is true. I was angry - honestly, I'm still a little angry, but that sort of thing comes from these situations I believe. As much as I hate to, I have come to terms with your decision.

I hope that one day we can at least be on friendly terms. I would enjoy your company again, even if it is merely platonic. And I do hope that you can find happiness one day, even if it isn't with me.

Yours —
Barnabas