Topaz had started trying to pretend everything was normal--because sooner or later, it
had to be. Things would never be the same, but if this was going to be the way things were for the rest of her life
forever, there would eventually have to be a new sort of normal, and she was trying to find it, wherever it was. She'd gotten up early that Sunday, as she usually did, and got dressed and read a bit of one of the books someone had sent her. She sat quietly in the armchair by the window so that she didn't disturb Ruby, who was still asleep and probably would be just about
forever. Ruby always slept so late on Sundays that Topaz felt as though half the day was gone before she got up, but that was nothing new.
When the owl arrived with the
Prophet she read that in the armchair by the window, too--or at least, she read the first page. The rest of it she couldn't bring herself to even start--and why would it matter, anyway?
Ruby was still asleep, and Topaz didn't want to wake her up by crying. She was also just tired of crying. She wished she could hate the man who had written it, because of what he said about Papa, but she couldn't. What he was saying about werewolves in general was
true, wasn't it? If Topaz had been attacked by one and she
hadn't been bitten, wouldn't everyone in their family have felt the same way about it? If there had been a law about rounding up all of the werewolves and making them live somewhere where they couldn't hurt people, none of this would have happened to her. It was too late
now, too late for her, but she knew why people would want this. If she could have gone back in time, maybe she would have wanted it, too.
Maybe Papa wouldn't have. Papa thought everyone deserved a chance. But if Papa had
known what was going to happen to her, would he have argued against a law like the one the man was talking about? Would he have wanted werewolves to be free to walk about if it meant there was a risk that the attack would happen to her? If he
didn't have her to think about now, would he have supported a law like that one?
Topaz had folded up the newspaper and left it on her desk, still walking quietly to avoid disturbing Ruby. She knew what she needed to do. Papa loved her--that much was clear, from the night of the attack to everything that had happened since and the wonderful things he'd sent in to the
Prophet--but she understood why people wouldn't trust him to be rationale about these things when they affected her so much. She wasn't sure they were wrong, either--maybe Papa loved her enough to be irrational about them. Which meant that maybe, just by being here and existing, she was opening up the door for the thing that had happened to her to happen to someone else.
She took a small suitcase from the closet and went in to the bathroom down the hall and methodically started packing the things she would need.
She'd have to write a note. Not to Papa--though of course to him
too--but a note to
everyone, a note to the
Prophet, or else they might think that she wasn't really leaving. They might think that Papa was just hiding her away somewhere, and that would make things even worse for him. She mentally tried to compose the note as she packed up her toiletries, so that she wouldn't have to agonize over it when she sat down to write it. Ruby slept forever, but Topaz didn't want her to wake up while she was still here and see what she was doing. Ruby wouldn't understand.
Topaz checked the clock in the hallway and thought she probably still had at
least an hour before Ruby woke up. That would be enough time to pack some clothes and write her notes, and then she'd go downstairs and floo all the way to London. She didn't know what she'd do then. She supposed maybe she could try and get on a boat to somewhere, but then what would she do on the first of September?
She was busy thinking about
that conundrum when she reached the door, so she didn't hear the voices until she'd already opened it and was face to face not only with Ruby, who was very much awake, but with
Delight, too. Topaz's heart sank and she felt quite suddenly defeated--there was no way she could
tell her sisters that she was running away, because they wouldn't let her--she
knew they wouldn't let her--but the suitcase was already half packed by her side, so what on earth was she supposed to do
now?
"Good morning," she said, in a very small voice. She set the suitcase down and stared at the floor, feeling rather embarrassed at having been 'caught,' so to speak.