the past is real

[Tabitha Peverell]

Mia,

James told me I needed to talk to someone so yeah. There's no one else really to talk to. Um yeah. I guess I tried to kill myself. Failed, obviously. Failed at that like so much else.

Tabs

NOTE: Back dated 8/17/1882
ALSO: There are some dried blood smears on the page

  

[Amalia Qeb]

Tabitha -

I must admit, I'm not sure how to reply to the news that you tried to take your own life. But I must assure you that you are not a failure. I know we've never been overly close, but you are worth something Tabitha. Your life has meaning. I'm sure that all sounds like empty, cliche words to you, but I mean it. Even if we never were close, I would feel your loss in my heart and be the lesser for it.

All I can really offer you is support. I can't claim to know what you're going through or how you feel, but I can lend you my ear to talk to, shoulder to cry on and prop yourself up on when you need it. I can try to put myself in your shoes and sympathize with your feelings, but that won't be enough and I know it. All I know is that it will take time, but I will do everything I can to make you happy again. I would be distressed if I were to lose you.

Perhaps my words offer little comfort, but they are all I have. I fear that - no matter my good intentions - words will not be enough to help. And I understand that it must be frustrating to know that my words aren't much help. But I mean them with every bit of my being. I do love you; you are my family. So whatever I can do for you, just tell me and I'll do my best. Know that you can always turn to me, I will never turn you away or make light of your feelings. Nothing you say can make me give up on you.

Here for you,

Mia

  

[Tabitha Peverell]

Mia,

You've always been a better sister to me than my own sisters, though I suppose Isabelle isn't at fault that some freak of a vampire got off on her scent or something.

Maybe I could visit you during a Hogsmeade weekend or something? I go back to school soon and mum wants me to go out with her and Isabelle and buy all new things for school so I don't know if I'll have much time to do anything else before school starts.

Tabs

  

[Amalia Qeb]

Tabitha -

I'm glad you think such of me. Between you and me, I think I rather prefer you to my siblings. But you know how they are. At any rate, I would love for you to visit with me during one of your Hogsmeade trips. Of course, if you can find the time before the beginning of the term, I'd be happy to see you.

Mia

  

[Tabitha Peverell]

Mia,

At least your siblings are.... well, you know. Elitists or whatever and therefore they suck. Sorry you got saddled with a shitty lot.

I'll see what I can do before school, but since school is in 2 days at this point, I'm not sure anything's going to happen. I'll keep writing to school and let you know when our first Hogsmeade weekend is? I don't think I want to go home anyway.

Tabs