I Don't Want to Fall...

[Meryasek Moriarty]

@Eilis Hooligan
December 23, 1884

Yaz couldn’t make sense of his behavior or his feelings. He sat on one of the bedside edges, naked, the imprint of teeth on his left shoulder. The encounter ended early and neither party had achieved satisfaction. Yaz had gotten too rough in his wanting and when he didn’t back down, Eilis had bit into his shoulder. She bit down hard, too, which had resulted in, perhaps, their first fight.

Now, here they sat in an uncomfortable silence.

Yaz wondered at his behavior now. He didn’t understand what got into him; what had made him so crazy. He had never felt like that before. He was usually so easy-going, even in his passion. He never had been so rough before.

He braved a glance over his shoulder. Eilis still sat opposite to him, her bare back turned towards him. He began to nibble on his lip and turned back around. He sighed, the silence beginning to bother him more than his mind-boggling behavior.

“I’m sorry,” he said quietly, utterly dejected. “I don’t know what got into me…”

  

[Eilis Hooligan]

Eilis seriously didn't know what to make of Yaz. He had been acting oddly ever since they'd left the Wonderland event in favor of getting a room for themselves in the Arms.

It had all started off well enough and then it had begun to hurt. He hadn't stopped when Eilis had voiced this so she had ended up biting his left shoulder. Hard. Then they quarreled. It was safe to say that the mood had been utterly destroyed.

Eilis sat on the edge of the bed on the opposite end of Yaz, not wanting to look at him due to her ire. He was really quite lucky she had not punched him!

"I don't either. What's with you? You've been acting quite weird lately." She replied, still not looking at him as she stayed where she was.

  

[Meryasek Moriarty]

Her reply hit harshly against his ears, her voice maintaining a tone of irritation. He wished that he could explain what came over him, but he hardly knew.

That was a lie. He knew. He knew exactly what it was. He was in love. He was in love with Eilis. He didn’t understand it, but there was no use running away from it now. His heart—his heart, of all things!—was screaming at him for ignoring his feelings for so long. He tried to bury them, to ignore them. He didn’t want to admit to being in love with Eilis. What if she didn’t feel for him what he felt for her? What if admitting to the things he felt would make her leave? She told him once to not overthink things, so he tried not to. He tried to keep things simple and then it somehow had become complicated.

“I know,” he answered in acknowledgement. He kept his eyes fixed on the wall in front of him. He tried to steady his nerves and remember to breathe. How was he supposed to say it? He never felt this way about anyone. I’m in love with you sounded easy enough, but gathering the courage to say it was proving problematic.

He breathed in a shaky breath before closing his eyes, covering them with clammy hands. “I think I’m in love with you,” he breathed out. His muscles felt taut and his heart pounded against his chest. He couldn’t seem to move – he felt so anxious!

  

[Eilis Hooligan]

Eilis kind of hmphed at his acknowledgment. It was a bit chilly in the room but she was too stubborn to move back into the warmth of the bed since that would take her closer to Yaz.

Then he spoke ... What? Eilis had not expected the next words he said in the least. Especially after he had freaked out about the possibility before. Well, she knew him well enough by now that he wouldn't joke about something like that. Besides, those words made his behavior make sense. Somewhat.

Eilis searched for words to say but she couldn't seem to find them. Instead, she turned to look at him. He had his eyes covered with his hands so Eilis just stared at him as she tried gathering her own thoughts and feelings about his confession into words. It was fruitless because it was like her voice had gotten stolen.

Her mind went back to when she'd first met him, which thinking on it wasn't too long ago. Still, she didn't think that made what they felt invalid in any way. And she was pretty sure her own feelings reflected his. But she was afraid. If asked, she wouldn't even be able to explain what she was afraid of.

Instead of struggling to find words she was too scared to say out loud, Eilis remembered what he had said the first time they met about the things you do being able to express your feelings if you couldn't say it directly. He had also said the actions could be misinterpreted so she hoped hers wouldn't be.

Moving back into the bed, beside him, she made him move his hands. Eilis smiled at him, a soft smile, softer than her usual ones, before she gave him a gentle kiss on the lips. As she did that, her hands found their way into his hair.

  

[Meryasek Moriarty]

Eilis’s silence was unnerving. The fact that she didn’t respond to his confession made Yaz scared. She’s going to leave, he thought, preparing for the worst. His body began to involuntarily shake as he tried to keep his wits about him. He had to keep it together until she left. Then he could turn into the pathetic mess he was striving to hide. With the stakes running high and seemingly against him, Yaz couldn’t bring to pull his hands from over his eyes. He felt her weight shift on the bed, heard the sheets rustle softly. His heart pounded, expecting her weight to vanish, but it didn’t. He felt the bed near him adjust to her weight before he felt her hands on his own. He let her pull his hands away from his eyes.

With some hesitation, he opened his eyes. Her face greeted him with a soft smile. The softest smile he had ever seen. Her dark eyes were gentle in their expression. He wondered at her for a moment, still uncertain and scared. When he felt her lips press gently against his, his breath caught before he returned it just as gently as he received it. Her fingers made his scalp tingle as they tangled into his hair.

Yaz shyly drew his head back from the kiss, breaking it. “I thought you were going to leave,” he admitted, his voice a little strained as he tried to keep his wits about him. He felt foolish now for even thinking such a thing – she obviously felt the same for him as he did for her – but the fear had been overwhelming.

  

[Eilis Hooligan]

Looking at Yaz as he drew his head back, Eilis still wasn't quite sure what to say. He had thought she would leave? Eilis could see why he might have thought that. She would have thought the same if she had been the first to confess, truth be told. Especially when one considered his reaction to the mere possibility. But it looked like it had happened anyway despite what they'd both said. It was sort of amusing and proved even more that hearts weren't things people could actually control.

"I thought you wouldn't ever love me," she admitted in return to his confession. "I mean, you freaked out at the mere thought before. Guess love is one of those things people can't control, like the ocean waves." She then had to laugh slightly at the poetic sound of her own words. Maybe she really should try her hand at being an author.

Leaning towards him, she whispered into his ear because she was actually a bit afraid to actually say the words out loud. "I love you, Yaz."

  

[Meryasek Moriarty]

Yaz’s cheeks flushed with shame at her confession. He had been horrible to her before. He hadn’t considered her feelings at all, though he thought he had. He had been under the impression that nothing serious was meant to come of this relationship. He thought it had been a silent agreement betwixt the two of them, but he was obviously wrong. It made him wonder exactly how long Eilis had been in love with him. She must have had feelings for him—or at least, acknowledged her feelings for him—long before he acknowledged his own. It made his heart swell with affection for her.

Her poetic words caused an involuntary smirk to cross his face. He was tempted to tease her, but the sound of her laugh and her smile made him think better of it. She obviously took some pride in her words, even if they were a little mawkish.

When she leaned in and whispered those four little words into his ear, whatever doubts Yaz had subconsciously continued to hold about her affections vanished entirely.

“Meryasek,” he murmured back as he slid his hands around her bare, petite waist. “My name is Meryasek,” he explained, pulling her body closer to his. He wore a small smirk on his face and a slight blush rose in his cheeks. He wanted to hear her say his actual name, though he didn’t know why. He just knew that he needed to hear that name come from her mouth.

  

[Eilis Hooligan]

Eilis didn't think Yaz had anything to be ashamed about. He had been quite right in the fact that nothing serious was intended to come out of their affair. She had been in silent agreement with him that it was just for fun without strings attached. But then, feelings had started to grow and eventually falling in love with Yaz had just happened. The whole 'nothing serious intended' agreement had been precisely why she had not planned on saying anything.

Eilis tilted her head to the side slightly at his murmur. "Meryasek?" She parroted as he pulled her closer to him. "Well then, I love you, Meryasek Moriarty," she said, managing to say the words aloud though they brought a tinge to her pale cheeks.

  

[Meryasek Moriarty]

He felt his insides warm just at hearing her murmur his name. As he suspected, something magical happened when she said his first name. The warmth turned to heat when she reiterated her declaration of love, using his full name. He couldn’t keep himself from kissing her at that point. She was so perfect, glowing like an angel; the blush in her cheeks only made her more endearing. His lips found hers, gently at first, but Yaz’s passions heightened quickly and the kisses deepened.

[ We interrupt our current broadcast to bring you this important message: WILD PASSIONATE LOVING SEX HAPPENED. I marked this thread as “M”, darn it, so sex has to happen, right? ]

Yaz was languid in the aftermath. He felt a sense of completion that he had never felt before. The world felt perfect and peaceful, and Yaz felt untouchable. He looked at the petite creature, his admitted love, who laid next to him. He offered her a boyish grin before kissing her brow.

“I love you, Eilis Hooligan,” he told her contentedly. He felt his heart pound in the after effect. A certain nervousness came over him as he realized that he hadn’t really said it before. What a difference it made! The words were true and out in the open now.

“What happens now?” he asked after a moment. He had never felt or confessed such feelings before. What were they supposed to do now that they both knew each others’ feelings?

  

[Eilis Hooligan]

Eilis had no qualms with giving in to passion and desire, especially when it seemed to hold new meaning behind it.

She was as languid in the aftermath as he was, content to just lay there. Smiling at Yaz as he kissed her brow, Eilis resisted the uncharacteristic urge to giggle as he told her he loved her using her full name. She absolutely loved hearing it. "I love you, too," she replied, wondering if she would ever get sick of saying that.

At his question, she thought on it a bit, fingers playing with the ends of his hair. "Hm, I don't know," she admitted. "I've never loved someone before."

  

[Meryasek Moriarty]

Similarly to Eilis, Yaz wondered if he’d ever tire of hearing those words from Eilis’s lips. They warmed his heart and soul, though he would never admit to such corny feelings. No doubt, despite their similarity of feelings, Eilis would tease him incessantly if he showed that he was such a romantic. But that wasn’t going to keep him from teasing Eilis about certain things. For example:

“I thought women were supposed to just know these things! How can you not know?” he exclaimed in response to her admittance. “Isn’t just part of the general makeup of women?” he continued with a grin.

  

[Eilis Hooligan]

Eilis couldn't help laughing at his teasing. "Ah, but I'm not like most women," she teased with a wink. "I personally think we continue on as we have been doing. Living in the moment. Only now, we know we love one another," she said, cheeks warming with a blush. Oh, that made it sound like she did know.

  

[Meryasek Moriarty]

Yaz returned Eilis’s teasing with a smirk. She certainly wasn’t like any woman he had met. She was completely unique. But Yaz had never really known the women had been intimate with before Eilis. Eilis had been the only exception to his escapades. She had agreed to meet with him again and now she had managed to weasel her way into his heart, winning it wholly and completely.

At her statement, his eyebrow quirked. Apparently he was right. Women did know these things, even if Eilis said that she didn’t. It must have been just part of their genetic DNA. Women just had this sort of intuition about these things… except for maybe Kali. Kali was more like a man than anything. Dare Yaz say she was more masculine than him in her sensibilities? He didn’t, but he could certainly think so.

Poseidon’s staff! What would she say about all this? Did it really matter? It was his decision after all, but Kali had been the one, who had told him not to ever become emotionally involved. Why? What was so wrong with it? He actually rather liked it, now that he was being completely honest about the situation.

“That sounds like a good plan,” Yaz affirmed with a smile. There was a brief pause before he asked, “Would you like to go get some more hot chocolate? Maybe snag some snack, if they have any. All this love stuff’s made me hungry.” He grinned.

  

[Eilis Hooligan]

Eilis smiled as her lover said that her thoughts on how things should go now sounded like a good plan. She certainly thought so! Eilis didn't think that things had to change a lot just because they fell in love with each other and had both admitted that.

Eilis then decided that Yaz also had a good plan because she was hungry, too. "Sounds good!" She agreed before getting dressed.

Then they went back to the Winter Wonderland and continued having a good time. The End.